So Friday is the only day that my fiance has off of work. Today while I was at work this morning a few of the girls I work with asked if I wanted to go see the new Twilight movie with them. I told them I couldn't because it is John's only night off of work and we would want to spend time together because I work day shift then he works night shift so we never see each other anymore. Well a little while after I was home he mentioned that he wanted some time to himself so he wanted to go to the bar for a couple hours. I understand him needing time for himself but all I want to do is try to spend time together and time as a family with our son because were never all together anymore. And I couldn't go out with him because we cannot afford a babysitter for tonight. I have to go pick him up in an hour and all I want to do is put our son to bed and go to bed but I have to wait until I pick him up. It's not a big deal I just wish that we had gotten to spend the night together because tomorrow on my day off he works open to close. I don't know I've just been in this huge on and off depression funk recently. I didn't tell him that I blew off the movies with my friends to spend time with him because I didn't want him to feel bad about having time to himself. Am I wrong for all of this bothering me? I have depression and anxiety and the stress that we have been under money wise and getting back on her feet because we been screwed over countless times( we let someone stay with us trying to help them out and they ran up our bills and never paid us a dime and now we are left paying all of the bills so we're trying to dig ourselves out of the hole that she put it in). I am just so physically exhausted from work and mentally exhausted from all the stress that I don't know where my mind is anymore. Not to mention my son is going into this terrible twos stage and that's not helping my sanity either lol. I don't know I guess I'm just looking for you ladies to let me know that I'm not wrong by being bothered about everything tonight with my fiancée. Thanks.
on Nov. 16, 2012 at 11:02 PM