My youngest brother is suppose to help my mom rent a house but he is "too busy" to go with her. I said to her how selfish he is because he knows she needs a better place to live and he knows he has to come with her to sign the lease. My mother said, "All my children are selfish anyway." WTF?!?! So I said, "I am not selfish. People have told me how generous I am". She says, "Well children are usually more generous with other people anyway". I said, "That I generous with you more than with you than ANY of your other children!" She responds, "You are generous sometimes." I was very much offended and my feelings were hurt and I made it known! All the sh** I have done for this woman from driving her around when she needed to go somewhere (eventually I found out she had money), giving her money for different things (when my brother said he would LOAN her some money; she lost her phone and I paid $125 for another one; she needed time on another phone she had and I put $100 on that one then she lost that one and the list goes on and on), allowing her to live with me on 3 seperate occasions, and listening to her woes (when on one occasion she called my brother to talk and he told her that her problems were depressing him), just to name a few, and she views me as "being generous SOMETIMES" because I have made it clear that I do have a life and a lot of things going on and cant be there all the time whereas my brother does not have any kids, no real responsibilities and really does not give a damn! He has his sh** over her house but wont come to check on her or help her. I usually dont let things bother me but today I did cry. It is a painful realization to me that the one I call mom still is (has been)a poor excuse of one to me and is very ungrateful and selfish. I was really hoping that we were getting a better relationship but I see I am still viewed as not being worth very much. Sigh. Oh well. It is what it is. So since I know where I stand, I will take my selfish a$$ (I guess I learned from the best) and worry only about me, myself, I and my son.
on Sep. 6, 2012 at 9:48 PM