Who is the first man you ever really, truly loved? Do you still love him?
I saw him in June of 2002 and what can I say he had me from day one. We both worked for a manufacturing company and when we met he was a 2ndshift supervisor and I was a regular associate on 1st shift. He was the kind of brother a lot of women did not look at twice right off, once you got to know him, he was a sweet southern gentleman but initially if they passed him by and got a whiff of his cologne, they would for sure look back just to see who in the hell that was they had just passed by with that good smell, but in my opinion the dark chocolate brother was all that he needed to be. Confident in his stride, clothes ironed so sharp he would cut you if he bumped into you, and I'm not talking about the regular creases in the pants, I am talking about creases down the front and back of his shirts every day pants creased so sharp the crease didn't budge when he sat down. This man was fine, sharp and smelling good every single day since I have known him and I later found out, sweet as pie. Like I said he had me the day I saw him walk in the door. I was 28 at the time and he was 38, divorced with two daughters, which I did not know until the first date. Long story short as I can make it 3 years we dated and it was beautiful but he then tells me one day, he feels like he is robbing me of things he already has done in life and he doesn't want any more children and so that was it. I cried and cried and cried, I loved that man, I still love that man. He was everything I had ever wanted in a man, so many of those qualities that I see in my father, that I said, I would love to have in a my mate but he was the opposite of me, I am impatient and he is so patient and more soft spoken where as I just say it. Today, we are still friends and last month he moved two hours away to Columbus, Ohio and he was the person I first shared the news with I was expecting, being the man he is, all he wanted to know was did I need anything. I miss not talking to him everyday, and he still calls once or twice a week but it isn't the same, but I have told him, he has left some pretty big shoes for any man that wants to be serious with me to fill.
And that is the man that I first truly loved and still love.