I have three kids all boys. My first one is a image if health he was bf for his first year (I had no idea I could do it longer) my second guy couldn't eat for five days after he was born. He had heart surgery at 3 days old. I pumped all his milk. He even got all my colostrum. I wasn't able to put him to the breast til his second week of life. A really good lc came in and said I was doing everything right and to keep up the good work. He had a feeding tube and had to take the majority of a feeding through his tube! Over the following month I would put him to the breast and he would get mad and I would give what he would take in a bottle theN the rest down the tube. Well I eventually stopped trying and just pumped. I pumped so much milk it was insane. I cont to pump til he was 9-10 mths old and I switched him to soy formula bc he was having milk issues ( I had no idea at the time how bad soy is) I stopped pumping bc of the milk thing. I had no idea about nipple shields or SNS or cutting milk from my diet. I know no so much more and I really feel terrible. My middle child is a small guy (especially compared to his brother) he has had a ton of surgeries and health issues. He is the type who is always sick. Then I have our third boy who is becoming a little fatty and seems like a image of health so far. I just wonder if he would have had a better shot if I would have bf him. I know this is crazy. I just think about it all the time. He has had a cold for a month. I have taken him to some type of doctor at least once a week for every week of life he's had. EVERY single week for 19 mths. My heart just breaks for him and yet this little man is full of energy and smiles. When I look into his eyes I can see he is going to grow up to do something amazing! Sorry so long I was just thinking about this a lot tonight. Mobile so its hard to proof read!
on Oct. 30, 2010 at 9:13 PM