Apparently he thinks I "lose it bad" at night with our son who is only 11 days old! You have got to be kidding me, he's a great, sweet baby seriously. And soooo cute! I would never do or say anything about harming him. I bf at night obviously, but he will sleep for about 4 hours then eat, it takes like 2 hrs at the most because he doesn't always go back to sleep..and I've got to rock him and bouce him and walk with him while burping, mean while, dh is....sleeping? So yah! I get mad! Ill say "uggghh!" Or sigh a lot or when I finally get him to wake up he says "want me to take him" I says YES! Apparently that's. Mean? Because I'm exhausted?? Now if I wasn't totally scared id get ppd or anxiety, now I am! Jerk!
So I told dh he made me feel like I was a bad mom cause Im not always in a great mood about being woken up and staying up, and it makes me feel sad like I'm not cut out to deal with more than one child, or that he's disappointed in me. He said he never meant for me to feel that way, that he loves me and just wants me to be happy all the time so he gets worried for me. Guess it just came out wrong, cause I felt horrible..but we aredoing good now, we talked and he's taking baby more since I hold him all day cause I'm a baby hog, he says I still need space, it will help me at night :)
on Jun. 20, 2012 at 3:10 PM