I do feel like a failure. I only EBF my twins for I think was 2 weeks. It was all such a blur now when I try to recall. I know that they started to have small orange spots in their diapers, found out that it was called "brick dust" and that meant that they were dehydrated. We started supplementing formula right away. I never really enjoyed breast feeding, it may be more enjoyable with one baby at a time. I will try again if I have a singleton. They are still getting breast milk, I am pumping and bottle feeding. We do about 60% bm and 40% formula. I still kinda feel like a failure and that I shouldn't be allowed in this group or the LLL that I used to go to. I don't feel like I am "in" with that crowd anymore and will be looked down upon as a failure. I just wanted to reach out and see who else may feel this way.