Right now, I feel like I'm past the point of broken. I am healing well from the csection I had last Friday and I could not have asked for a better baby. She sleeps and eats well.. is not too fussy. She's wonderful. It's the nursing that is getting the better of me. I've read a million times how to get a proper latch and I feel like I'm doing everything correctly, but I'm not. My nipples are cracked, bleeding, sore does not even begin to describe it. All I do is cry all day because it hurts so bad. And on top of that, my hand hurts almost continuously, making it extra difficult to hold her head and body in the right position for nursing or burping. My partner is helping in every way he can, but there's not much he can help with the hurting. He comes home and deserves to have a happy baby and partner, and still... I just cry most of the time. When I'm nursing her, I just keep saying "I love you babygirl. " And somehow.. I make it through each feeding. We were planning to get an electric pump when he gets off work, and I feel like that would help tremendously with the pain in both my breasts and hands. I feel awful having to go that route, though. Any suggestions? How long does it take for my nipples to get better if I just wait it out? How long till I can feel like I'm bonding with my babygirl instead of dreading each feeding? Before I was pregnant I was diagnosed with clinical depression. Though I don't feel like hurting myself or others right now, I can see clearly how this could lead to postpartum depression if something doesn't change soon.
Thanks for listening ....
on Jul. 20, 2012 at 12:12 PM