i ant due untill febuary but the doc is sure she will be here this month.
But dang do i have to leak so much? just for funn of it i i stuck a bag on by brest using the bra to hold it in place and by the end of the day yesterday i leaked over 2oz!!! no wonder the brest pads are always uncommfy. i dont want my baby early but i do want to stop leaking!
The other issues i have is more mental i think. my kids know any mother that gives birth makes milk and my oldes 8yr even came up and asked when would i start making milk shortly after he know we were expecting. I dont think i can pump or bf infront of them on the regular in the first few weeks as baby and i learn. root of the problem is i think my moms boy toy, two years ago when jason was born i bf him and we were having a few issues (4-5 days old) and i look up and he is stairing at my cheast and the baby. one of my good friends noticed about the same time i did and flat out asked him if he wanted some :) I also have self body imige issues so when ppl staire i get uncomfortable. its not that i am assamed to bf its all me and i know it. how do i get comfortable with the idea of brest feeding in front of 8 and 7 year olds. the brest is a sexual "thing" in this society hence bad for kids to see yet it is also a part of life that feeds the babys.