Soooo nervous bfing won't work out again
Here's what happened with my first:
We had a slightly rough labor and delivery. I chose to get induced after going late. He was born 10 days past edd. I was on pitocin for 29+ hours. We ended up using a vacuum to help him because he was starting to get worn out (after no sleep so was I). It gave my poor baby a headache. :( I was completely exhausted and had a bit of blood gushing (and a big clot the next day). I thiiiink I was anemic as well. We both had no energy. He got bad jaundice and lost weight. I was whiter than a ghost and got ppd. Yeah, bad ecpierence. Anyways, we had latching issues. I tried using a nipple shield (that was too small) and it seems to make matters worse. Due to him losing weight, I started pumping. I couldn't keep up with pumping (feel asleep while feeding him previously pumped milk) and it added to the ppd. Giving him the bottle (I believe) caused nipple confusion. At around 5 or 6 weeks old I switched him to formula. (Best and worst feeling at the time.) I didn't learn enough and decided it was best. He is now a happy, healthy 1 yr old. :D
Now, every time I think of breastfeeding all I can think of is the horrible experience we had. I'm afraid it will happen again.