I was a semi-active member of this group awhile ago but left cafemom due to it become a bit of an addiction. I came back because I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this particular problem.
I have put off going on antidepressants for a few months because of breastfeeding. The only antidepressant that has worked for me is Pristiq because my depression is somewhat unique. After much researching, I just don't feel comfortable nursing while on it. I need to go on meds though. I feel like the benefits of them in terms of my parenting outweigh the benefits of nursing her at this point.
My 20mo DD nurses only once a day. She doesn't seem attached to nursing because that morning sleepy session is the only one that I've been able to get her to do since around 16mo. She is sick right now, and then we are going on a week long vacation. I plan on attempting to cut back during the vacation, hoping that the change in routine may help the weaning (it may very well have the opposite affect).
I guess my question is: How do I deal with the guilt? Logically I know what I'm doing is for the best, but I'm sad about weaning and would like to make this transition as peaceful as possible.
Any suggestions about our situation would be helpful.