I have to keep reminding myself that I'm doing this for her.
I've been struggling on and off with PPD and have just been focusing on nursing my dd, who is now 5 1/2 months.
I'll be honest. I tried to give her a bottle of formula, but she absolutely refused it (even when I wasn't home). I would have tried BM, but when she's not nursing, I'm chasing around my 3 year old or running errands. I just can't find the time to pump.
Lately, I feel crowded. I've constantly got someone on or near me, and I just need a break. The comfort nursing is driving me crazy. My 3 year old son is always fighting for my attention. Then dh gets home and he wants to be around me, too. It's gotten to the point where I stay up super late at night so I can have some alone time while everyone's sleeping, but then as soon as my head hits the pillow dd is crying to be fed. By the time morning comes around, it takes everything I have to get out of bed and do the whole day over again.
I know it's for selfish reasons, but I'm going a little crazy here. There has to be some kind of balance where dd can still be breastfed and I can still have an hour or two a day of calm, quiet, ME time.