dh wants me to stop breastfeeding *UPDATE*
The first 2 1/2 weeks were torture for me to breastfeed. Baby wasn't latching correctly and then would fall asleep immediately upon latching and was extremely difficult to wake. But she was gaining and had good diaper counts so I knew it would get better.
Well now she latches perfectly, but eats every hour...had for the last 2 weeks. Which would be fine if I slept at all lol. Here's the problem. Sometimes she will latch, then pull away. This will happen several times until she gets so frustrated that she will literally have her mouth over the nipple and act like she can't find it! This will go on for at least 5-10 minutes and will happen at nearly every feeding at night. So at night she will constantly want to feed because she's not getting enough. The last 3 nights and days, I have not slept.
We saw a lactation consultant yesterday. She said to make sure my back is supported at every feeding (too hard to do in bed, but I'm so tired I can barely get out of bed!), skin to skin at night, use extra pillows or a towel on top of, or under, the nursing pillow so that my boobs and baby's head are supported and I don't have to constantly hold my breast (my breasts are very large so they need to be lifted the whole feeding for her to stay latched until she's older). I tried all of these last night, but my dh only saw the skin to skin as he was sleeping! Quite honestly, it's much too hard for me to nurse in bed. Problem is that if I get out of bed for any length of time more than 2 minutes, I can't go back to sleep! So tagging her to the nursery or downstairs to nurse would be just as futile for my sleep.
Last night was awful! I fight with her all night. Finally, I woke dh up and told him to take her. I put a pacifier in her mouth because I couldn't handle the crying anymore. I couldn't handle her shaking her head over my nipple as if it wasn't there and then her poor cries of hunger. I was much too frustrated and was worried...so he took her downstairs and fed her twice while I slept. He told me I cannot breastfeed anymore unless I can keep from raising my voice, crying, and saying God hates me. He has lost faith in my ability to do that. So he has lost faith in my ability to breastfeed. And now I'm depressed and feeling like the worst mother on the planet.
UPDATE: So dh and I talked late this morning. He is witted about me and the baby. Worried that I'm not taking care of myself and worried she's not eating at night. He apologized for snapping. Also, he's taking me to the store to look at better pillows.