AJ McLean: â€śMy Daughter Is An Inspiration To Stay Soberâ€ť
For new dad AJ McLean, staying sober is â€śa daily thing.â€ť But the Backstreet Boys star says his 3-week-old daughter Ava Jaymes is his greatest motivator.
â€śI canâ€™t stress how much my daughter is an inspiration to stay sober,â€ť McLean tells In Touch. â€śWhen I come home and she opens those big blue eyes at me, itâ€™s the most amazing feeling I could ever feel. Iâ€™m not looking for sympathy. Itâ€™s a constant struggle, and itâ€™s not as easy as you think.â€ť
And although his daughter brings him great inspiration, the former boy bander admits that he recently fell off the wagon.
â€śA few weeks ago I had a really bad day, I was in a funk,â€ť the 34-year-old popstar says. â€śI went out in Hollywood and had a couple of beers and maybe one or two shots.â€ť
The singer admits that this lapse in his willpower has happened several times in the past year.
â€śThis happened two weeks ago, roughly,â€ť he shares. â€śBefore that, I was sober for almost a month. Before then, four months. Itâ€™s been sporadic.â€ť
McLean has battled with alcohol and drug addiction for more than a decade and has entered rehab three times (in 2001, 2002 and 2011).
â€śI will forever be an alcoholic and an addict in recovery as long as I live,â€ť he tells the mag. â€śItâ€™s an ongoing struggle, a daily thing.â€ť
And now that AJ is a husband, father, making a solo record and working on a jewelry line, he admits life is â€śoverwhelmingâ€ť right now.
â€ś[I'm] trying to be a good husband and a good father and deal with life on lifeâ€™s terms. There is a lot going on. Itâ€™s been overwhelming,â€ť he says.
In the meantime, AJâ€™s wife Rochelle has been busy posting sweet snapshots of their gorgeous girl via Instagram. Check out the latest photo that the proud new mom cations, â€śPerfection.â€ť