Beyoncé opens up about her high-profile pregnancy in Life Is But a Dream, her new HBO documentary that debuts later this month. She talks about the miscarriage she and husbandJay-Z endured before the successful January 2012 birth of daughter Blue Ivy.
The popstar also shatters the ongoing speculation that she used a surrogate to carry their now 1-year-old daughter. ”To think that I would be that vain,” she says in the film. “I respect mothers and women so much. To be able to experience bringing a child into this world, if you’re lucky and fortunate enough to experience that, I would never ever take that for granted.”
“It’s the most powerful thing you can do in your life — and especially after losing a child, the pain and trauma from that just makes it mean that much more . . . A child, you don’t play around with that,” the Bootylicious singer adds of carrying a child.
Saying that her miscarriage was the “saddest thing,” becoming a mother to Blue became a profound experience for the Hollywood mom.
“My baby was born out of a conflict in my life and that struggle had to be settled. I wouldn’t have gone through the pain if I hadn’t gone down the path,” she shares. “There’s something so relieving about life taking over you like that. You’re playing a part in a much bigger show and that’s what life is, it’s the greatest show on earth . . . I felt like God was giving me a chance to assist in a miracle.”
Watch for the Grammy Award-winning singer to perform in the Super Bowl this Sunday, where she will”absolutely” sing live.