So I went to pick my sons up for Thanks giving dinner tomorrow. I was so excited to see them and to be spending time with them. I haven't spent time with them in a couple months. They are 23 and 20 and have been living on their own for almost three years now. So I cherish every moment we have together. They usually come to my house and spend the nite and we go to my S/O's mothers home for dinner. Well when I got there I got the let down. They decided that they don't want to spend the day there. I was heart broken and almost broke down and cried right there. I heald my composure and have been next to tears for hours now. I really do understand where they are coming from, they are young men and living their own lives now. But it tore my heart out I have never spent a holiday away from them. I know they are usually bored to death at my MIL's house. I am still getting over the empty nest syndrome. It took me a good year of living without them before I stopped crying when I thought of them. I must seem like a big baby but those boys are my life and I sure do miss them. LOL. I'm such a doting mom. Anyways........... I just needed to vent a little.
oh honey, i'm sorry "{
they are at that age.. you know? i know it is hard. they do not have children i assume?
well.. there you go right there. once you have kids, your whole perspective changes. they wouldn't do that to their mom if they had any clue what it felt like. they would suffer through it and deal.
but.. they are 20 and 23... they are probably planning a football party. booze and girls for everyone! lol
hey, when you are 20 and 23.. that's paradise right there. that's what "giving thanks" is all about when you are a young man with no worries or cares.
hugs! i don't know that any of us can really get past that feeling. you spend all of those years raising them and protecting them... to have to eventually let go.
it's one of life's cruelest realities.
hugs!


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- Stevessherry
on Nov. 26, 2009 at 5:06 AM