Today I would have been having my baby but he died in January and I had a D&C, I have been doing ok, I have a precious 7 year old stepdaughter and an amazing 4 year old son who have kept a smile on my face, but today I am heartbroken and I cant stop crying. Any moms been through this? How do you get through the due date? #heartbroken
Quoting masonsmommy107:I just carry on like it's a normal day because if i mintion my angel baby i feel like the only weirdo still morning the second would have been my babies 4th birthday i hate feeling like i can't talk about my baby :(
Time heals all wounds. I was forced to have an abortion or I would havehadto suffer the consequence of living on the street and losing a scholarship. All my boys are cancers june 29, my youngest and July 1, the twins. This baby would have been my oldest born June 26. you see how this could make me feel as if he should have been here and a part of my family too? the pain stays and the fact you were his mom will always remain deep in yor heart. It gets better. It's been almost 20 years and I celebrate his due date as though he is here........hoping his little spirit is somewhere looking down smiling with understanding. He was a part of you so you'll always remember............somtimes more than others, but it does get better. I got pregnant again by his dad. We ran away because his dad refuse to let this happen again and now we have three beautiful boys all in college and working.
Its okay to cry. Just let it out. I write in a journal when I think about my son. I was a few days short of 19 weeks. I know it is so hard for you. Just know that over time it is easier. I still get misty eyed around the time I lost him but I realize it is my heart letting me know its ok. For the first few years I did some thing to celebrate him. Some was as simple as writing a poem or going to my favorite place on the mountain that over looks the valley to speak to him. When he would have been one. I baked a cake for the family but never brought him up until years later I told my daughter when she lost a baby. She said she knew it was a different day that year. She is the oldest so she knew the whole story of Bradley. Hugs to you. I am thinking about you today.
My son has been in heaven now for 6yrs but I can say there is not a day that goes by I do no think of him.. the 1st year was litterly hell... and his birthdate was that much harder... Cry it's ok! Shows you loved him and you are a good Mama... But also know he's at peace and he's in the best hands even if they are not my hands I know with all my heart Joshua is where he needs to be. I also not on his death date but his Brithday the day I gave birth to him and relseased him back home to God I release balloons and I have a little time for me to just sit and remember my son. I had him 23wks in my stomach we bonded we loved thou I never got to see his eyes or his smiles doesn't mean I didn't have a bond with him. He was loved I had dreams for him and plans with him. I cry for him to remind myself how much I really loved him. And that is ok!! Give yourself the permission to love him!! And don't be afraid of what others might say cause you do! HUGS...
Just breath and remember that what you lost is always in your heart. I have lost 4 and every year on the expected due dates I get moody and a little teary eyed but as long as I remember to just breath and that they are still very much in my heart then I am able to tackle the day. You can always go hug you other children that helps me as well. I have never been able to have biological children but I do have many step-kids and we adopted a little girl. Life doesn't always give us the things we want and sometime takes the things we work so incredibly hard for but I TRY to be grateful for what I have instead of dwelling on what I lost. It doesn't always work but it is good to try.
Quoting Npasley:
You can always talk about your baby. I have two angel babies and I talk about them all the time I tell people I have 3 kids even though I only have one to show for it. They are still my babies an I still love telling people that I have three. Yeah people can get kinda weird but I believe it's our right as a mother to be able to talk about them freely! :)
Quoting masonsmommy107:I just carry on like it's a normal day because if i mintion my angel baby i feel like the only weirdo still morning the second would have been my babies 4th birthday i hate feeling like i can't talk about my baby :(
Personal responsibility/ government rant
- ctmsmommy20
on Aug. 5, 2012 at 6:39 AM