At 1:20 this morning, my family suffered a devastating loss. My 98 year old grandmother passed away. She hadn't tried to get out of her bed at the nursing home in over a year cuz she knew she couldn't walk. Yet on Valentine's Day, she decided to do just that. She fell. The fall broke her nose and left her with two minor wounds just inside her hairline above her forehead. It also cracked two vertebrae in her neck.
They got her stabilised at the hospital and started to move her for transport back and she stopped breathing. Because of her DNR, they couldn't do anything. My family didn't get to say goodbye.
I have only seen my father cry twice in my lifetime- this morning before dawn, i saw him cry a third time. There is nothing harder for me than to see him cry- a man taught that boys don't cry, shedding tears.
So now, i have to attend the funeral of the woman i admired most in my life. I have to stand beside by her grave and say goodbye and know i'll never hear her voice and have her share her wisdom again. And i'll have to worry about my father, whose health is declining anyways, and my sister, whose never been the most stable person.
When do i get to grieve?
So please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers, mommas. Hope for us to have a speedy recovery. Thanks.