Lately, I have been having feelings of not wanting my child. Not that I don't love him I do, but I'm almost to the point of abandoning him with my mother and sending child support to her. I'm not depressed, its not that I want to do things, because before this feeling I would drag him with me every where. But now he is four and I want nothing to do with him. I can't stand or handle him. I don't know why, weather its behavioral I don't know. But I just don't want him. I don't know what to do either. My mother put me in this position in the first place when she said that "if you don't want him I will adopt him". This isn't the first time I have felt this way either, I have felt this way since I was pregnant. When I was pregnant I was going to put Ds up for adoption and make it open. But even after I told my mother this she still said the above. Like I said I love my son, but I am not feeling motherly. I'm even to the point that I'm done having kids out right.
I told my mom how I am feeling, she is now taking care of my Ds till I can feeling I am up for it.