Here's my story...
My son was born at full term. He had used the bathroom in me and it caused some brain damage. The first three weeks of his life he was in the hospital for seizures. They said he possibly has cerebral palsy and could be any where from mentally retarded to normal. He's a year and a half now. He hasn't had anymore seizures. He goes to physical, occupational, and speech therapies. He can't walk. He can sit up but he can't put himself in the position. He can barely crawl and isn't saying anything. I can tell its mostly physical and not so much mental. He knows what he wants and can remember really well. I know it doesn't matter that he has problems. He's wonderful and perfect and I'm just lucky that I got to bring him home cause I know some parents lose their babies.
Why do I feel so sad and unhappy all the time? My baby isnt making me unhappy actually he is the only thing that makes mo happy.
Why do I fell like I missed out on the happiness every other parent has when they have a new little on?
I truly feel like I'm stuck in a hole and the world is just passing by but I can't get out and enjoy life?
I worry all the time if he's gonna have another seizure, is he ever gonna be able to do what other kids do, is he ever gonna be able to tell me he loves me.
I'm just so stressed out all the time and feel like I'm missing out on the happiness.
(Sorry its so long of a post, I just need to get it off my chest)