I am feeling as if there is more to my life than this. I feel that where I am is not where I need to be. I love my kids, but sometimes I’m not too sure about anything else. I love being around for my kids and doing things for them. I just don’t know however about my love life. Some days I feel like I love hubby, and sometimes I wonder what life would be like without him in it. We separated in September of 2006 and got back together in February 2007, and since then, I feel like things have changed, and not necessarily for the better. When we first got back together, he stepped up to the plate like he was actually going to be a father, and was working really hard to make sure that bills were paid so that I could stay home with the kids. In October of 2007, when finances started getting tight, I had to resume working, and found employment at Bob Evans. Once I started making money again, he stopped wanting to work. He works, but not as much as he was, and he refuses to ask for more hours. He seems to think that me working is enough to support everyone or something like that because his checks don’t amount to anything. I don’t know what would make him think that I can support us all, but apparently he does because he doesn’t seem to want to do anything to help me. INCLUDING taking care of OUR kids. Then he had enough nerve to tell me last night that the kids and I were nothing but a burden and he wished that we weren’t around. Then he tried to tell me that he was sorry. I’m sorry, but there’s NO excuse for that. I don’t feel that I deserve that, and I KNOW my kids sure don’t. I am glad that I have a job so that I can take care of my kids, but don’t think that I WON’T go after him for child support!! Am I doing the right thing?? I don’t feel that I’m in love with him anymore because of the things that he has said and done, but I wonder if I’m holding on to so much because he was my “first.” I’m wondering if somewhere down deep I’m still “in love” with him, or if it’s just feelings of remembering what things used to be like. What would you do?? Please help me!!