On February 28th, 2012, my son David was born 12 weeks early. We had been prepared for this since his sister was also 12 weeks early and is now a healthy 22lb. 1 yr.old. But it ended very differently this time. David was born with a heart defect that would eventually require open heart surgeries, and to our surprise that was the least of his problems. David had bleeding on the brain, a staph infection which lead to kidney issues. He was so swollen that he looked twice as big as his 2lb. 8 oz. self. Eventually his bowel perforated which lead to complete kidney failure and liver failure. On March 13th we had to make the decision to take David off life support. He passed in our arms that evening. Everytime I close my eyes I see him in my arms, his passing was only the second time we had gotten to hold him. I'm holding it together for my daughter, but I struggle with the guilt that I couldn't bring a full term baby into this world. I know its irrational, but thats how I feel.