I love my boys so much. We are so happy right now. We just bought 2 brand new cars and neither are suitable for 3 children. Our boys already share a room. Wow.
I know I will be happy & love this child but right now I am very sad. I am a musician and in a very successful 9 piece horn band and that will all change. I've sat at home for years watching my husband's musical career skyrocket and I finally have something that I love and now who knows what's going to happen.
I was going to go back to work in 2 years, now I'm starting all over. I don't even know if we can really afford another child. I am so overwhelmed.
I don't know if I have the strength to go back to the sleepless nights and non stop breast feeding. Maybe I will just not nurse as long this time. Maybe 6 months.
I can see from the small number of people in this group that this in either not common or people are afraid to talk about it openly. I'm sure some will think I'm a terrible person for not being happy but I'm just trying to be honest.
I know everything will be ok in the long run and we will be happy but for now I am just sad.