Best Friends
I am 20 years old and i have a 3 year old son, i am no longer with his father we have been seperated for about 10 months now. i feel so old it's funny to say this but i do. i was 19 when i found an appartment for me and my son i feel like i should be starting my life but it's like i am half way done with it already. i have a son a place of our own i pay my own bills i struggle to get things that are neccecary to live, without Matthew's fathers help he doesn't pay child support and does not help me one bit. i have gone through so much stuff that i feel i should not have to, just the drama of matthew's father is enough to handle. i am so ready to just settle down with someone but i am only 20 where am i going to find someone who will want to settle down, everyone is just beginning life, i just wish i didn't feel older then i am does anyone else feel the same???
|
|
by babygirl40 on Jul. 22, 2008 at 9:33 AMBeen there done that. I am well over 20 yrs old ,I was in my early 30 when I went through the same thing, I had 2 small children depending on me and I wasnt getting any help from the sperm donor as i call him cause thats all he was. He didnt want to work all he wanted to do was drink and I got to where I couldnt take it anymore so I decided to do it on my own and it was hard but I got through it and you will too. Keep you chin up and just Thank God for everything you have. Especially your little boy. He depends on you for everything. You will be rewarded in the end just wait and see. Someone special will come along and it will be forever. |
|
|
by logan612 on Jul. 22, 2008 at 3:04 PMI feel old but I'm 30. LOL When I look at these younger people I think they look so young. You have a huge responsibility at 20. Good for you for being able to keep it all together. I don't know how I would have done what your're doing at 20. Maybe you will me an older guy like maybe a few years older than you that is ready to settle down. Good luck! Robin |
|
|
by mominpark on Jul. 24, 2008 at 5:26 PMI am in my twenties and feel the same way... Unfotunately, Its a long shot on gettng a man close to our age to settle down. Its a struggle but.... I am still waiting for a great guy to come into my life and its been 3yrs since my daughters father left us. Its best to get to know yourself again before letting a man in. I am still getting to know myself. lol |
|
|
by MamaKrystal on Aug. 18, 2008 at 11:11 PMI'm 22 now, married and expecting my second child. My daughter is going to be 2 yrs old in September and is my pride and joy. I know exactly how you feel, I felt the same way when I was single mother with my daughter when her biological father left me when I was 3 months pregnant with her at 19 yrs old. He has yet to see her at all still, I had to get the state involved for paternity testing to let him know that she was his and for him to pay child support. He left me to moved to Alaska, I know what a jerk. Anyways, I ended up falling in love with my best friend that's now my husband after being friends with him for 4 yrs. I didn't realize he was the love of my life till after he helped me with my daughter when I needed a babysitter to work and go to school. You can't go looking for love, you have to let it come to you. I know it's hard and frustrating being on your own but everything will work out in. Just focus on yourself and your son for right now. With the child support, you should get the state on to him for that because that's not fair for you to struggle to make ends meet raising your child on your own. While he's out enjoying his freedom without dealing with the consequences. |
|
|
by adrilovespeter on Aug. 20, 2008 at 9:23 PMYep, been there, done that. I'm in my early 30's and I'm currently single. Loving it every minute! Don't worry about settling down, take time to know yourself. When I was 26, I was in a relationship where I thought, this is it. No more dating or meeting someone new, this is my life! It didn't turn out that way, we only lasted 7 years, and now, I'm happy where I'm at. I work, pay my bills, have my house, etc. Enjoy your time with your baby, believe me, before you know it, someone will come along. |
|
|
by motherof_cute1 on Aug. 20, 2008 at 10:10 PMYES I DO!!! EVERY MUCH SO, IT'S CRAZY. I WALK AROUND LOOKING LIKE MY GMOM WEARING A ROBE AND HAVING A WRAP AROUND MY HEAD.LOL. I MEAN I THINK IM OLD MY BODY WENT THROUGH SO MUCH STRESS I EVEN LOST HAIR OVER THIS. IM 20 HAVE AN 18 MTH OLD AND MY OWN PLACE. I WAS TRYIN TO MAKE IT WORK BTW HIS DAD BUT IT DIDNT HE'S NOT WORKIN AND HASNT BEEN SENSE FEB OF THIS YEAR. SO DOING THIS BASICALLY BY MYSELF WILL WEAR AND TEAR ON YOU. HAVING TO DO THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM NOT MADE TO TAKE CARE OF NO MAN, ONLY PERSON IM SUPPOSED TO TAKE CARE OF IS THE CHILDREN A HAVE. IM NOT SAYING THAT I TAKE CARE OF MY BD BUT SOME DAYS I FEEL LIKE IT CUZ HE DOESNT DO ANYTHING, O HE WATCHES HIS SON WHEN HE AROUND IF I NEED HIM TO. SO I GUESS YOU CAN SAY HE BABY SITS.BUT I DO FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE A MAN TO UNDERSTAND THAT MY SON COMES FIRST AND STILL BE ABLE TO HANDLE SOME KIND A RELATIONSHIP BUT THEIR ARE ONLY A HANDFUL OF THOSE. IM NOT TRYING TO GET MARRIED ANYTIME SOON. BUT I WOULD LIKE A MAN THAT IS DOING SOMETHING WITH HIS LIFE, TO TREAT ME TO DINNER, JUST TO TALK TO. |
Only CafeMom members can reply to this post.