I feel so overwhelmed, confused and sad!

just found out my mom after 15 yrs is moving back to hawaii in the beginning of october. I love my mom, but she just drives me crazy, she is the single parent mom, do it all, supermom, 3 kids, ft job, masters and BA, something I could never measure up to. Thats my sons grandma which makes me sad. My sister is moving back to hawaii as well in december, she only had an 8 mos stay in cali. As far as she goes...good riddens. Shes the type of person that says crap like "Why r u feeding ur son spagetti o's? Do u know how many preservatives are in their? U should feed him something healthy. You havent given your son a bath yet!?", etc. She doesnt have any kids herself, but my son does love his auntie. The family dog kiara will live w/ my son and i until my mom get settled, then its goodbye kiara, until mommy saves up enough money to visit hawaii.  

My cat who is 18 1/2 yrs old is not doing very well and is going to be put down. All i wanna do is cry. I dont know how my sons gonna deal with this 1! About 14 mos ago we put down another family cat named flounder, she was 17, she had a stroke, became blind and towards the end couldnt walk. Its happening all over again! My son just doesnt understand, where's flounder? i want to see flounder? flounder in heaven? I want to go to heaven & see flounder! U said flounder get better! Why no flounder come back? I miss flounder! I dont know how my five yr old is gonna handle another cat dying!   

My son starts kindergarten on monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so excited, scared, nervous! I dont know how my son will be able to cope/handle all of these changes! When im so overwhelmed myself. How can i ease his pain? Make these transitions easier for him?

On saturday my son and i got back from a week vacation/retreat at a place called mt hermon christian conference center.  We had a blast! My family and i would visit that place every summer, it has so many wonderful childhood memories! Its so hard to leave a place like having to go back to the real world. My son and i went creek walking, swimming, boating, made crafts, miniature golf, train ride, smores & much more. Mommy went on a course of 6 ziplines, 150 ft high. We met so many wonderful people. My son learned more about god, and i got to know other single christian mommies. I feel so empty and sad right now. 

*If u dont agree with what I say thats fine 2 each their own, please feel free to read on, respond, whatever...i just dont need ur negativity here! On tues he asked me who god was...uh duh!, i feel so dumb i just didnt know what to say! Whatever i said ended up in another question! Who is god, where is god, god died, i see god, etc. I tried to explain to him that God is in heaven, when u die u go to heaven. My sons response was 'god died? How come i no see god? I want to see god!' What should i tell him? Im so lost here! His answers & questions here r really freaking me out! I myself am really confused. I know their is a god, i know he exsists...  

Many parts of the bible i dont understand, they are so many contradictions. Paul says its better to remain single, then it says be fruitful and multiply; wives submitt to ur husbands, love ur wife as u love urself; the lord says we should fear him, he also says he is a loving and merciful god; I could go on and on.

There are also many beautiful parts to the bible (that some fellow cmers who claim to be christian should read!) There is only 1 lawgiver and judge, the 1 who is able to save and destroy. But you - who are you to judge your neighbor? James 4:12

If i have faith that can move mtns, but have not love, i am nothing. If i give all my possesions to the poor & surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, i gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast...Love never fails. ...When i was a child i thought, talked reasoned like a child. When i became an adult I put childish ways behind me. ... 1 corinthians13:2-4,8,11

There are also many parts of the bible i have a hard time with! I know i know, its either accept god words to be true or not at all! I really hate it when i see religious sects past present and future picking and choosing parts of the bible that suits them to control followers. Even people using verses to condemn each other when no 1 has that right!

"The lord will keep u from harm - he will watch over your life" psalm 121:7 The babies left in the hot car to die, the babies thrown into dumpsters, the babies put in microwaves they were not kept from harm! How does this fall into gods divine plan!?! Some verses i just dont get!

Our sons in their youth will be like well nurtured plants and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace, psalms 144:12. So the boys will be allowed to grow/nurtured, but the girls will be controlled/carved into what the parents see fit, to look pretty, to be placed in a palace/husbands. Hows that fair!?!