Chapter 3: Question #5 How would you answer this question...

[Bells1158]

5. How would you answer this question: "Do you want peace or drama?" We all want peace, of course, and yet there might be something inside you that craves the drama, wants the conflict. This week, pay attention to situations or thoughts that trigger a reaction in you. Can you, as it says on page 77, "feel that there is something in you that is at war … that would rather be right than at peace?" Can you become aware of your mind racing to defend its position, justify, attack or blame? Can you awaken at that moment of unconsciousness? List three situations this week, or at any time in your life, when you chose being right over being at peace.

[conjuredUp]

I am in chapter 8 of the book so it is hard for me to answer some of these questions without using the terminology of the chapters after 3 so bare with me:

I live with a GIANT pain-body.
It circles over my home.  It is in my family. Me, my husband.

I have caught it trying to escape from me at LEAST 5 times this morning ALONE.

I choose peace.  My spirit KNOWS what space it takes up.  My spirit LIKES being in the NOW.  My ego and my pain-body are doing EVERYTHING they can to get me to REACT to things that aren't happening NOW.

It is a constant tug-of-war right now.  A minute to minute (or NOW to NOW) battle taking place on a new front in every NOW that happens.

But each time I push that yucky pain-body back?  When I chip away at it?  I have LESS drama.  Less desire for drama.

I just want peace.

[IAMGmom]

I feel I'm at war whenever I'm around my mother in-law. I never say anything or start confrontation but I feel a deep anger. She's never done anything horrible but the comments that she makes gets to me. I know I need to just let it go but sometimes it's impossible.