Right now my parents need a lot of help because they are both having medical problems. My husband has been away for a few weeks with the national guard. My brother who normally helps me with our parents went to Florida because he couldn't deal. I work full time and I have a 4 year old daughter.
I was driving to work and out of nowhere this thought pops up in my head: Mom and Dad didn't have to deal with sick parents and raising a child at the same time. I started to get really angry at them for needing me. From there I got angry at my brother for leaving and my husband for not being here when I need him. My pain body started to pump my thoughts for all it could get. It took me a good hour to let it go. I'm not angry at them. It was my ego/pain body stirring up conflict. Normally I would have stayed angry all day.
This afternoon I started to wonder how others who have read A new earth are dealing with life's frustrations. Shining a light on what my Ego was trying to do makes those thoughts evaporate. I have a great compassion for what is happening with my parents. My brother was overwhelmed and he will be back, and so will my husband. Right now I am doing the best that I can and it is enough. My daughter is loved and cared for. She is a wonderful compassionate child.
I'd really like to hear your stories too. Shine a light on what your ego is doing. We need to support each other.