When the opportunity to create new groups came along the whole atmosphere of CafeMom began to change, to be honest, I was just about to pay my tab and leave this little cafe . . . Some of the patrons weren't always nice. Fights broke out often, if I want to hear children bickering I can just take out my ear plugs!
I began looking through the groups, found a couple I thought would suit me, but I didn't find what I was hoping to find, somewhere to write. I figured someone would get the idea eventually, and then it came to me, why can't I be somebody? I created the group before I really took the time to think about it too much. Once I started to think about it I almost deleted it.
I have worked and moderated and written in writing groups before, they were my safe haven from the world around me. I could write what I felt and not worry about being judged or criticized. Every day I would write, and I would read and I would be inspired. When I was asked to join the team I was so thrilled. Several years later AOL decided to shut certain boards down, ours was one of them.
Some of us tried to rebuild what we had but it was futile and I felt like a whole family had instantly been taken from me. I emailed my cafe friends and asked them to join, some of them were writers, some were not. It was a slow start and I almost closed up shop but then someone posted a poem, and new members started coming to visit. I was more than delighted!
I had found a new sanctuary, with you. I knew that there was talent here, that was undeniable. I didn't know, not at first, that there was heart here as well. I've seen you guys reach out to each other, and you've reached out to me and I wish I could thank you for that. I don't say this often, but sometimes words simply aren't enough.
I won't share my life story with you, I will say that I have more difficult days than good ones. People often ask me how I do what I do everyday, I sometimes wonder myself! God guides me through every moment of every day. I live on my faith and I know without question that God's will is being done in my life and in the lives of my children, even during the worst moments, I know.
Believe it or not, aside from my husband and my mother you guys are the only friends I have and let's be real, can we really count my husband? I exist. Sometimes I feel like it's all I do. I exist. I do what needs to be done and I exist. I have to, they need clean underwear and a meal every now and then. I have purpose and I have love but I haven't had anything for me in such a very long time.
This group has taken my existance and breathed new life into it. Oh my, as usual I've used a thousand words to say one simple thing . . .
Thank you and I love you all. :o)
NOW ~ Since our little family has grown and more of you are letting your hair down and the words are freely flowing I decided a little help would be a good thing!
The phrase Muse Support was thought up by our dear Pam so I promoted her. Okay, there was more to it than that! But I think it is a fun and fitting title for the wonderful ladies that will be helping and encouraging everyone who graces this forum. We are all here for each of you - Questions, comments, concerns, needs, wants, advice . . . whatever you need we are here for you!
Your MUSE SUPPORT Team ~
pamlarson - A recent blessing in my life
jcam8506 - An amazingly talented poet with too cute of a little boy
Baps - One of our newest members and someone I am thankful to know
I love you guys and I thank you and I respect you and I think you are all talented and beautiful and . . . Okay, too much :o)
As Always ~ Hugs & prayers ~ Crystal
LINK TO ORIGINAL POST . . .
We've had to say goodbye to pamlarson :o(
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