I babysit my cousins 6 month old dd. She is a waitress and her dh is in jail for drunk driving. I watch her 3 or 4 days a week for 6 hours a day. She doesn't pay me. She can't afford daycare. She buys us a few groceries now and then to help out. None of this is an issue.
The problem Is that I hate it. I hate watching her. She is a difficult baby and fusses all the time. I love her dearly but watching her is driving me nuts. I have a lot of problems anxiety and depression and the anxiety is getting worse. I feel terrible. I want to help out. I really do but I just don't know I can handle it. I feel guilty for not wanting to watch her. I also feel guilted into watching her. I never actually offered to take care of her but my grandmother was watching and she fell and broke her arm (my mema not the baby). One day my cousin called and said she was bringing her over. I've been watching her since.
I just don't know how to tell her I don't want to do it. I don't know what she will do for a baby sitter if I don't do it. Who else would watch a fussy baby for a few groceries? She doesn't make a lot of money. Her husband is a looser and even when he get out of jail I don't know how mush help he will be.
So do I suffer with axiety attacks and depression or do I try and suck it up and watch her. My kids are in school and my youngest doesn't like the baby. What am I going to do during the summer when they hate each other? I just don't know. If I decide not to watch her anymore, how do I tell my cousin?
What would you do?
This is Bunny. Copy and paste him into your signature to help him gain world domination.