So where is God now?

[TheGreatCthulhu]

I was raised to believe in God, I was baptised, attended church every Sunday and on holidays.  I was raised to believe God is this all powerful all loving entity that if you believe in him and pray hard enough, you might just get what you need.  Well, what a damn joke that is.

Where was God when my mother was physically and mentally abusing me until I was old enough to move out?

Where was God when I was diagnosed with a rare and untreatable form of breast cancer last year at the age of 25?

Where was God when my children, my husband, and myself got terribly ill with some unknown virus back in July and I had to give birth all on my own without my husband there?

Where is God now when my 3 year old, my 23 month old, my 3 month old, my husband, and I are going to be homeless because we can't find a habitable 3 bedroom house within our rental range and landlords apparently think section 8 is synonymous with meth addicted losers who will destroy their property? 

People who will actually accept it think it better to leave their house vacant for months on end because they wouldn't dream of lowering the rent by $50 or so?  The only reason we're on housing is because I'm disabled, my husband was injured on the job, and now we're both going to school so we can have decent jobs that we're both physically capable of doing.  It doesn't help matters that we are limited to only being able to rent a house, as opposed to an apartment or townhouse, because our 3 year old son is Autistic and prone to random screaming fits.  We'd be evicted not even 24 hours after moving in for noise violations.

If God exists, I guess he's sadistic. 

[Septpreggo]

i ask myself that question every time i hear of a baby being murdered, raped or abused

[NattysMommy]

He doesn't exist 

[gobimom]

Every time I need to "see" God I look at my children...no better reminder that a greater being has to exist. 

 I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time.  I hope and will pray that things improve for you.  Hugs to you. 

[ready_for2]

sounds like you are not fooled and brainwashed...good for you!! and im sorry about your situation, maybe consider a smaller apartment?? it doesnt hurt for children to share rooms, or even beds for that matter... good luck i hope something works out for you. "I'll pray for you" lol

[mommyoftwo103]

I really hope things get better for you!

[HungarianQueen]

I don't believe in God... But I do believe that the world has a way of working things out (like Karma). I hope things get better for you. I'll send some good thoughts your way. 

  

[Aplatel87]

Quoting Septpreggo:

i ask myself that question every time i hear of a baby being murdered, raped or abused

Agreed.

[atlshine]

He's at home watching Satan make life miserable for everyone. The Bible explains the whole thing quite well.

[TheGreatCthulhu]

Thank you all for your replies.  As to why we can't get something smaller and have the kids share a room, my Autistic son has to have his own room or he'd literally kill his siblings.  We even have a doctor's order requiring him to be in his own bedroom.

[brittneyon]

He's right beside you waiting for you to come back to Him.