I am so sick of the way things are around my house. Im a single mom of three boys 16, 15 and 6. My 15 year old is a hellioun. He creates a living hell around here. He hits the walls..yells...aggavrates his brothers...just all ways something. I cant seem to keep the house like I want cause he is always making messes...I try to have him clean them up but it dosent work. I tried to take them to the zoo yesterday..well the oldest two fought the whole damn time. I was embarassed. Im so unhappy that I almost wish I would have died when I had my last child (almost did). He is the ONLY thing in this world that even half way makes me happy. I really HATE my life. It suxs..Yea Im having my pittly party. For years I have told myself to keep going and it would get better but its only getting worse. I have tried church and praying and living life as God would want but that go me no where but more problems in more ways than one. Now I just live and barely at that. Im just tired of it all. I hate being alone but with my life like it is thats all it will ever be.
I'm sorry you feel this way. I haven't been threw this...yet but if my kids are anything like I was as a teenager I am in for some real hell. Lol. With the whole living the way God would want. I know I am young but I went threw something similar, as far as things getting harder. I know this probably isn't what you want to hear but things always get harder before they get easier. I hope you feel better and your boys straighten up.
Hang in there sweetie. It feels as if everyday your are strangling against some invisible noose and you loose more and more of yourself. But the years will go by quick, and one morning you will wake up and hear quiet, the house will be clean and you will be sipping coffee basking in your own beautiful moment. I know you cant see it, but it will come.
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- angie729
on Nov. 8, 2009 at 12:09 PM