i'm not a suicide risk anymore :)

[Mrszxcop3land]

i never really was but there was a point where i thought about it a lot. i knew i'd never be able to take my own life and i strongly believe in the saying "it takes more courage to kill yourself then to face your problems." my 'diary' is a series of notes to my deceased nephew, my way of venting about how wrong things are in my life. my BF has read it and wednesday night we had this big long talk and he told me it scared him that i ended every single entry with something in reference to my wanting to die and NOBODY knows that i think that way.

he pointed out how much my son needed me, first and foremost. then he went on to tell me how special i am to just about everyone in my life. and he pointed out how it's because of me two people are still alive. how i give everyone in my life joy. and it would cause too many people too much pain if i were in fact to die, let alone kill myself.

so now, i know i'm strong enough to make it through whatever and i'm no longer a suicide risk. yay me :)

[KyliesMom5]

I am so glad to hear that! Keep going mama and get help if you need it.  I can tell you from the point of view someone left behind how much pain it causes.  The unanswered questions, the hole in in our lives.  My dad committed Suicide last Month on October third.   My daughters birthday was the day of his funeral.  I am going to stop because i am crying but please never doubt that you are loved by those around you.  You are important to your loved one and needed.

[ILive4This]

Good for you, and good for your child :-)  Stay strong. 

[mommaboudreaux]

That is wonderful!!  Stay strong momma!