The hardest time in my life

[Woogiemama0521]

I figure if I post what I am feeling maybe I won't be so depressed. On Saturday morning at 5 my mom called me and told me my grandmother passed away. I was very close to her and everything I do makes me cry and I really haven't had any sleep. My husband doesn't want to hear it cause of all the deaths he has been through so telling him my feelings don't work very well. I just thought if I say how I feel and if others go through the same thing that they may help me cope through this hard and difficult time especially around the holidays. Thanks for listening if you want to be friends just send a request.

[LuvmySFSGT]

I can understand how you feel...I know its not exactly how you feel but my husband was killed 2 1/2 months ago. The holidays are going to be the worst. Just try to keep busy and confide in good family and friends.

And don't let ANYONE tell you that you shouldn't be upset....or angry...or however else you are feeling. You grieve the way YOU want to.

[chais_wifey]

I'm so sorry to hear that. 

[mommyheymommy]

I am so sorry sweetie.  I lost three grandparents in three years.  There are still days when for a split second I forget they are gone and break down.  It gets easier, but you will always miss her.  (((HUGS)))

[edwardsgirl]

I lost my niece a few weeks ago. The holidays are going to be hard without her, especially since i had already gotten her gifts for christmas. Just try to remember the good times and get through the holidays the best way for you. Try not to do what people want you to do.

My brother and sister in law basically cancelled the holidays for them..its just too fresh in their minds to try and get through with her gone. 

[cmb121906]

I'm sorry. Maybe try writing your feeling down on paper or on a  private journal here on cm. Just remember any and all feelings you experience are okay and it's part of the process. When you are really having a hard time with it, reflect on all the good things, that always seems to help me.

[myfoursonsks]

I lost my grandmother about 3 1/2 years ago.  She was truly one of the only women I have ever loved.  I loved her more than my own mother.  I still cry about it at least once a week.  Sometimes more.  I miss her so much.  I would have given anything to keep her here.  But, there are times that you will think about her and smile.  Memories will come back.  You will think of her laughter.  You will think about odd things she did or said.  You will cherish these.  It is heartbreaking at first and it will always hurt, but it does get better.

I got a lot of comfort because after my grandma passed away, I had a dream about her.  In my dream, she kissed me.  I felt it.  I felt it like it was real and she was really there.  I truly think she was.

She will always be with you.

[EbonySnow]

i'm so sorry sweetie! I lost both mine a long time ago but I know how bad it hurts, try to keep busy but ifyou need to fall apart do it go to your room and have a fit, it can make you feel better,

 

[7399kristal]

I know exactly how you feel I just lost my grandmother Nov. 3  and we were very close also.I was on my way to her house to spend the day with her like I did every tuesday when I found out she had passed.If you need to or want to talk I am here.I know what your going threw.

[tab9344]

I am sorry for your loss, I lost my mother 2yrs in March 2010.

If you feel like crying then cry, if you feel like yelling then yell. If you feel like talking about your grandmother then talk about her. Don't hold your feelings in @ all. Confide in your family & friends. And don't let anyone tell you that your emotions are not ok because they are you lost someone that you love & are very close to.

Hugs

[my5]

((HUGS))