welp-- this is it

[Shy_Dia]

my son is officially outta daycare. i got the letter today stating that we dont qualify for any daycare help. no idea what i'm gonna do. i feel so stuck and defeated.

my options
1) continue to go to school-- just take him with me. 5 hours on tuesdays, 9 hours on thursdays.
2) go to school part time (2 classes)-- but either way, he'll be coming with me- so about 5 hours each of those days... or maybe just 9 hours that one day. depending on what classes i keep and what class i'm able to drop.

3) quit school for this quarter... look for a job, hope that i can get him re-enlisted in childcare and hope that i can get back in school the following quarter...

4) just give up on college completely and focus on making money.

**my school only offers the general classes, online-- as in math, english, etc. i took math before, got a D in it- cuz i suck in math-- so they are now refusing to allow me to take another online course**

part of me wishes that i could just call up my son's dad and be like here- take him cuz this shit is just too damn hard. i get NO support from him, i'm failing as a college student (again), and part of me feels that i am failing as a mother (i know i'm not, but the feeling is there). but i could never let him take my son.. he lives in colorado, getting high and drunk (his myspace statuses) and we live in Ohio.

are there any other options? i thought that i found an awesome babysitter for 25/week, but 1) thats really expensive for me still 2) leaving him with a stranger freaks me out- i can barely have him around friends that i've known for 6 years-- thank you anxiety attacks... cant think of a reason 3, but i did have one- just forgot it.

no family or friends can help me. my mom is leaving on saturday for 3 months (class starts the 7th, for 3 months) and my dad refuses to watch him. he didnt even like my mom watching him since its not "their responsibility" (<-- which i understand his POV so there's no way i'd ask him to watch my son).

[Shy_Dia]

really guys? no advice or a new option i could take on this? lol come on- dont make me feel like i'm a failure at posting a simple thread!