A bit weepy :,(

[epoh]

Stupid, STUPID hormones.

I started getting teary when replying to the bully post in confessions.

I teared up when reading trouser's post last night about her son.

Now I'm drinking coffee and my nose is tingling and my eyes are wet again.

Stupid stupid fucking hormones. Agh.

[epoh]

And on the flip side is my IDGAF attitude.

[TrouserMouse]

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.

[raegansmom]

There there.  You will be okay.  :o) 

[epoh]

It's more about who was bullied and who was a bully.

I was the bullied kid. Like, badly in HS. It brought up all sorts of memories and bad feelings. Damn it
Now I'm really gonna cry.

Quoting TrouserMouse:

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.

[epoh]

I know. AF hasn't shown her face yet but she's making sure her impending arrival is well known. The Bitch.

Quoting raegansmom:

There there.  You will be okay.  :o) 

[TrouserMouse]

I feel horrible about this one girl that I bullied.  I didn't just bully her, I physically abused her.  I didn't mean to be the way I was.  That is why I feel so guilty about it now.  

Hope, I am very sorry someone treated you like that.  You didn't deserve it.  Someone took their own pain and used it to lash out against you.  They were not right for that.  It was not okay.  You are a wonderful person and I am so glad we can be friends.

Quoting epoh:

It's more about who was bullied and who was a bully.

I was the bullied kid. Like, badly in HS. It brought up all sorts of memories and bad feelings. Damn it
Now I'm really gonna cry.

Quoting TrouserMouse:

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.

[epoh]

I had ice cream shoved in my face, I was slammed into the ground, punched in the face. . . I used to stay after classes and get late passes and ask for help on things I didn't need help with to avoid this. Idk. I rarely talk about it. They used to chant at me when I got off the school bus and spread vicious rumors about me. There was a forum for the HS that some kid made and they were as bad as some of the women on this site.

Idk why it's stuck with me all these years. I've never let it out. It scares me for my kids. I got it at home and at school. I don't ever want them to be hurt the way I was. It's stupid that I've carried this with me even years after I left school. I guess because it doesn't always stop. The lies and rumors follow you even as a grown up, the manipulation of details of past experiences. I've made some bad choices in my life and people remember you from one period in your life and tell others that it's your current reality.

I just cried while writing this whole thing out so thanks for listening and for letting me release all that.

And I'm glad we can be friends too. I'm almost as weird as you so it's a good friendship. :p

Quoting TrouserMouse:

I feel horrible about this one girl that I bullied.  I didn't just bully her, I physically abused her.  I didn't mean to be the way I was.  That is why I feel so guilty about it now.  

Hope, I am very sorry someone treated you like that.  You didn't deserve it.  Someone took their own pain and used it to lash out against you.  They were not right for that.  It was not okay.  You are a wonderful person and I am so glad we can be friends.

Quoting epoh:

It's more about who was bullied and who was a bully.



I was the bullied kid. Like, badly in HS. It brought up all sorts of memories and bad feelings. Damn it

Now I'm really gonna cry.

Quoting TrouserMouse:

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.

[TrouserMouse]

That is the bad thing about bullying in school. It becomes a mob mentality.  Even kids that typically wouldn't act that way start participating.  They know if they are going along, that they are less likely to become a target themselves.  

It was a very painful time for you.  I am not surprised it still hurts.  When I talk about my childhood, I steal tear up and know that I will ALWAYS be affected.  I can sit back and say that it doesn't bother me and I am strong and overcame it, but the effects are there. They always will be.

And yes, you are ALMOST as weird as I am...lol.

Quoting epoh:

I had ice cream shoved in my face, I was slammed into the ground, punched in the face. . . I used to stay after classes and get late passes and ask for help on things I didn't need help with to avoid this. Idk. I rarely talk about it. They used to chant at me when I got off the school bus and spread vicious rumors about me. There was a forum for the HS that some kid made and they were as bad as some of the women on this site.

Idk why it's stuck with me all these years. I've never let it out. It scares me for my kids. I got it at home and at school. I don't ever want them to be hurt the way I was. It's stupid that I've carried this with me even years after I left school. I guess because it doesn't always stop. The lies and rumors follow you even as a grown up, the manipulation of details of past experiences. I've made some bad choices in my life and people remember you from one period in your life and tell others that it's your current reality.

I just cried while writing this whole thing out so thanks for listening and for letting me release all that.

And I'm glad we can be friends too. I'm almost as weird as you so it's a good friendship. :p

Quoting TrouserMouse:

I feel horrible about this one girl that I bullied.  I didn't just bully her, I physically abused her.  I didn't mean to be the way I was.  That is why I feel so guilty about it now.  

Hope, I am very sorry someone treated you like that.  You didn't deserve it.  Someone took their own pain and used it to lash out against you.  They were not right for that.  It was not okay.  You are a wonderful person and I am so glad we can be friends.

Quoting epoh:

It's more about who was bullied and who was a bully.



I was the bullied kid. Like, badly in HS. It brought up all sorts of memories and bad feelings. Damn it

Now I'm really gonna cry.

Quoting TrouserMouse:

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.

[Maliksgirl620]

Feel your emotions doing push them away. Its ok to be mad our sad our whatever! You ll feel better if u do! ((hugs)) "doing worry, be happy!"

[ErikaRobin]

Being privy to this conversation just makes me adore you two that much more.  :)

Quoting TrouserMouse:

That is the bad thing about bullying in school. It becomes a mob mentality.  Even kids that typically wouldn't act that way start participating.  They know if they are going along, that they are less likely to become a target themselves.  

It was a very painful time for you.  I am not surprised it still hurts.  When I talk about my childhood, I steal tear up and know that I will ALWAYS be affected.  I can sit back and say that it doesn't bother me and I am strong and overcame it, but the effects are there. They always will be.

And yes, you are ALMOST as weird as I am...lol.

Quoting epoh:

I had ice cream shoved in my face, I was slammed into the ground, punched in the face. . . I used to stay after classes and get late passes and ask for help on things I didn't need help with to avoid this. Idk. I rarely talk about it. They used to chant at me when I got off the school bus and spread vicious rumors about me. There was a forum for the HS that some kid made and they were as bad as some of the women on this site.

Idk why it's stuck with me all these years. I've never let it out. It scares me for my kids. I got it at home and at school. I don't ever want them to be hurt the way I was. It's stupid that I've carried this with me even years after I left school. I guess because it doesn't always stop. The lies and rumors follow you even as a grown up, the manipulation of details of past experiences. I've made some bad choices in my life and people remember you from one period in your life and tell others that it's your current reality.

I just cried while writing this whole thing out so thanks for listening and for letting me release all that.

And I'm glad we can be friends too. I'm almost as weird as you so it's a good friendship. :p

Quoting TrouserMouse:

I feel horrible about this one girl that I bullied.  I didn't just bully her, I physically abused her.  I didn't mean to be the way I was.  That is why I feel so guilty about it now.  

Hope, I am very sorry someone treated you like that.  You didn't deserve it.  Someone took their own pain and used it to lash out against you.  They were not right for that.  It was not okay.  You are a wonderful person and I am so glad we can be friends.

Quoting epoh:

It's more about who was bullied and who was a bully.



I was the bullied kid. Like, badly in HS. It brought up all sorts of memories and bad feelings. Damn it

Now I'm really gonna cry.

Quoting TrouserMouse:

Awww. I have days like that.  I am feeling weepy this morning because I am cramping really bad and I thought for sure I would finally get pregnant this month. I just want to go back to bed and cry.  I am starting to feel like it isn't going to happen. I am not ready to be done yet.  

I haven't seen the bully post in confessions yet. I may not want to look.  Everyone knows I feel about kids that are labeled as bullies.  If you don't know their story, you have no idea why they act the way they do.  But, there is almost always a reason.