Im ready to give up

[rebel_mommy09]

It's come to the point I beyond HATE my job. No hate isn't even the right word, it's beyond that point now. The last week or so I come home in crappy moods and spend hours crying. Saturday I spent most of the day at work crying. I dread going in. My son has been sick a lot here lately and I feel like a horrible mother because I'm not spending the time I should be with him. Right now our days consist of me getting up, taking him to daycare( he's 3), going to work, picking him up, feeding him dinner and putting him to bed. There's no him and me time and that really bothers me. I feel like I'm a shitty mom because of that. I'm desperately trying to find something else. I've looked. Nothing is there though. I'm full time right now at my job. I'm thinking about possibly asking my boss to go down to part time for a while. I only have ds on certain days since his dad and I are split up. I woule be asking for 2 of those days that I do have him off. If I needed to come in I would. I've got so much going on right now though that it's hard working full time, especially when your boss doesn't understand that not only do I have Dr's appointments but my son gets sick too. I have endometriosis and trying to get in to see the Dr is he'll because my boss complains about the days I make the appointment for. The Dr isn't there Wednesdays or Thursdays so I have to go another day. It's very frustrating because I feel like I'm not doing what I need to be for me to get better because of my job. My mom also passed away over the summer and trying to deal with that while working I feel like it's just gotten pushed off to the side and I grieve when I have time. I took 2 weeks off work and went back before I was ready. I just feel like in the long run going part time is best for me right now, until things kinda settle down with me. I weighed out the pros and cons and there are more pros than cons. I wouldn't eat out as much, I could spend more time with ds, save money on gas and daycare, and since he wouldn't be at daycare as much he wouldn't be as sick all the time. I would also be able to go back to school. The only con is that I wouldn't have as much money to spend on what I wanted and I may be a little stressed about money. I don't know, I think deep down I'm scared.

[kemmerer411]

Why do you hate your job so much?

[blsdbyangel07]

What kind of job do you have?

Sorry about your mom :(

[AngelNCO]

Hang in there mama!  You're overwhelmed and unable to see the big picture.  You're lucky to have a job and you're a GREAT mom for providing for your son.  You're going through some emotionally trying things.  You need to stay strong and do this FOR your son.  I'm sorry for the loss of your mom, but your life has to move on.  I know that sounds harsh.  I lost my mom too, it was soooo hard.  But you have to move on.  I wrote in a journal, it helped.  Hugs!!!!

[rebel_mommy09]

Im a leasing agent. It's just a lot of BS going on right now and residents coming in yelling and screaming and there isn't a thing I can do for them. It's frustrating and stressful and pisses me off that my mgr won't do anything about it.