Sock.Puppet (Final Update Feb. 28th)

[HouseKatof2]

Sorry it has been so long since I have been here, or given any updates. As I am sure you can all imagine, I have been spending most all my free time with mom. We had the added joy of my husband having a kidney stone last week. Fun times!

Mom went through a pretty nice "plateau" for a while. Once we seemed to get a lot of the pain under control she felt pretty good for about 10 days. Unfortunately we seem to be headed out of that calm period. Over the last week she is back to not being able to hold much down other than jello. She has become incredibly resistant to even want to try and get any real nutrition in her body. Hospice has begun to bring I.V. fluids out 2-3 times a week to keep her from becoming dehydrated.

We are no longer able to unhook her external biliary duct drain for more than short periods, like bathing, the fluid build up is rapid & has become incredibly toxic, not only to her body in general, but to her brain.  

After this week I fear we are quickly approaching the time that mom will soon enter in-patient hospice care. She is beginning to need more and more help at all hours of the night & day. She isn't ready to give up that kind of control, but she seems to be getting there at a rapid pace. 

Thanks to all of you that have kept mom/us in your thoughts and prayers. It still means a lot to all of us to know that people are out there thinking of us & caring about what is going on. Obviously I can't really promise to get here more often, but I will make an effort to update more often, even if it is just short little blurbs. 

I hope life is well for all of you. That you and your families are all healthy & happy... Oh & that you all had a great Valentine's Day.

 

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Feb. 20th Update; 

Well, we have reached the final leg of this race.

Momma's kidneys are shutting down & her liver is no longer functioning. We will be transferring her to the hospice home by the end of the week. The hospice nurse says, if she continues to decline at her current rate, she only has about 2 weeks left.

I am not ready... but life never seems to really care about any one's readiness.

 

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Feb. 26th Update;  

I am sitting with momma, enduring a very sleepless night, so I thought I would update you all to help pass a little time.

Momma entered the hospice home on Friday morning.  

She is no longer responsive. Her respirations are about 4 a minute. Amazingly enough, her oxygen saturation is still at 96%. She has been this way since about 3:00 this afternoon. I am fully aware that the decreased respirations are also magnified by the amount of morphine they are pumping into her. She gets 15ml every 2 hours like clock work.  

The deep slumber has become welcome to us all. She was so very confused and agitated, I think it caused her almost as much turmoil as the physical discomfort she was in.  

We have officially entered the "any time now" stage.

Every time I watch them wheel the velvet covered gurney down the hall, I know it is only a matter of time before it is called in for her. Part of me considers it a "win" that she has made it beyond the point of 4 other people that came in around the same time she did. Part of me thinks it is unfair she has to continue to struggle beyond the point she would want to. 

Sorry... I realize I am rambling. I just don't know where to put all the emotions that are running through me. 

Thanks again for listening/reading.

 

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Feb. 28th, Final Update;

After a battle that lasted 16 weeks and one day, momma left us this morning at 9:24. She fought and died with grace and dignity, teaching all of us the value of life, love & family. She will forever be missed. 

         

[jayme1978]

Prayers for your mom and you and you're family.

[genagina]

Still thinking of you and your Momma.  Thanks for your update.

[auntietotty]

Your mom is still in my prayers. And you are too!

Im sure it's overwhelming..please dont apologize for not getting on here..it's totally understandable! But thank you for updating us!

(((hugs)))

[Bird16_J]

 I'm so sorry to hear that! I'm glad that she had 10 good days though! You're in my thoughts! I wish I knew what to say without sounding like a complete jerk! Hugs to you and your family and I hope your hubby is feeling better as well!

[seffiepoo]

 Prayers for all of you.

[ejbljb]

Thank you for the update. You're all in my thoughts.

[Aydans_Mommy]

I'm praying

[2.b.con.10.Ud]

 Thank you for the update.  I've been thinking about your mom.  I hope you all can find serenity during this time.

[yayay15]

I am so sorry :(.

[kjfamily]

Love and light! I hope she has a smooth ascension.