My feelings are so hurt, I feel like I want to cry but I'd be so mad at myself for it

[BraydensMama163]

I don't really have friends, haven't since I was 16 and dropped out of high school to make room in my life for a baby. Well ever since then I've just met girls I hang out with cautiously until they screw me over or lie on me or just turn out to be totally brutal, arrogant jerks. Well I met this girl about 2 years ago and it seemed like she did me the same way all my other friends had done me. So I took it upon myself to grow some balls, so to speak and I stopped being friends with her, she used me to have someone to pass the time with while her husband was out blowing money and partying, then she used me as a babysitter so she could do her own thing while he was out partying. Well about 2-3 months ago, we started hanging out again and she was telling me to go to her house every day and she wanted me to help her clean every day, I was watching her kids while she rearranged this or that and I was taking one of her kids home with me every night. They couldn't even pay for their sons first birthday party, her MIL bought the cake and presents and like 3 of her friends bought the food and she earned some money for decorations by babysitting. Her husband is shit, I hate him, He blows all their money and thinks its ok cause his mom and dad wipe their asses with 100 dollar bills. 

Anyway, she up and left him last week after she caught him on A DATE WITH ANOTHER WOMAN!!! Well I'm calling her constantly telling her I love her and Im here if she needs help with the kids or a place to stay, well she calls me one night demanding if I am her friend to go to her house and see if her husbands gf is there, so of course like a dog I up and go. Her husband blows up on me about coming back over there cause I had already come once to see another friend of ours, it was her birthday and I made her cupcakes, well she claimed she was ( we'll call the wife Sandy) Sandy's best friend but yet she's at sandys house with Sandy's husband and his new gf partying and getting drunk...

Any way the husband knew she had sent me back over there and he text me the next day calling me white trash and to stay out of his marriage, because he's not concerned with my train wreck of a life... 

Then tells me that he'll have me arrested if he sees me at his house ever again, even if him and Sandy get back together....So I tell Sandy and she said she knows what he said, he told her.....nothing more never I talked to him and its ok your always welcomed...nothing except yea he told me

Then last night she drives the 4 hour drive from her grandmas back here and goes straight to the other girls house at like 1 am and today they've been posting pictures on facebook about 

"Mess with one of us you get fucked up by both of us" and all kinds of stupid stuff, pictures of them smiling and having a ball, were it not for facebook I would have never known she was back and it hurts my feelings so bad, I've known her longer than this other girl, I don't understand out of all the people coming in and out  of my life, what is so wrong with me that I can't have a decent friend?

[partyof54me]

Stand up for yourself, and kick her ass to the curb. You deserve better. People will only treat you the way you allow them to. Pick yourself up and move on.

[JZB]

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