*updated!! 5:00 pm 5.10* FMLFMLFML! Van is dead and my DH has abnormal blood work :( :( Not sure how much more I can take.
Not fucking much, that's for sure.
This morning started off on a wonderful note. Our only vehicle has been having some big problems. It died after I picked up my DD from school the other day. It was jumped, but since that happened I haven't had any lights, radio, automatic doors or anything else. NOT good for driving home for work every night, and this is on top of a gas leak that's seemingly getting much worse. But I didn't have any choice but to wing it, keep going to work.
Well today was supposed to be a full and chaotic day. I just got my paycheck, so I'd have to go through the hassle of cashing it (which is a hassle as my license expired on my birthday one month ago). No biggie. Also, my DH had quite a scare yesterday. He just had hip surgury, and now the doctors are rushing him to get back in there. Apparently, there's something abnormal in his blood work. It's a big deal, and they won't tell him over the phone. Soooo he had that appointment this morning @ 9 am. My van broke at about 8. I HAVE to get my DHS employment verification in TODAY, or we won't get food stamps for next month. I HAVE to pay the water bill TODAY, or we'll be shut off. And I HAVE to work just like any other day. And it's not just getting to work... it's driving to and from different accounts. Whatever.
I don't even care about the van. Not really. It'll probably get towed, but what can I do? I have no other options. I'm borrowing my parent's extra vehicle for the time being. It's more economical on gas, and actually runs. Thing is it's a stick. I'll have to learn how to drive it very quick.
The thing I CANNOT deal with right now is the fact there's something wrong with the love of my life, and the doctors seem to treat it urgently and as an emergency...and I have no idea what it is. He had to reschedule his appointment, and they actually called him right back to tell him HE HAD TO COME IN TODAY. I'm scared shitless.
sorry this is all sort of rambling and chaotic. It's how my head feels right now. :( :(
Does anyone have any idea what this whole blood work thing could be? Why won't they tell him NOW? I need to be strong, and I've always been strong... but this is my worst nightmare. I don't know how much more I can take...
We now are driving a VW. It's a stick shift, btw. I had a 2 hour stick shift course today from my parents. It's my 1st time ever driving one. Holy stressful situation! Some lady actually had to park it for me after I got stuck on a hill while picking up my DD from school.
Van started the next time I tried it. Paperwork is in, and the water bill will be dropped off on my way to work (it's on the way.)
My DH needs to go for further testing. I didn't get to go in with him, but we waited in the car for him. Apparently, they need to run more tests. Something they seen indicates cancer. I don't know all the details, and neither does his orthopedic surgeon. The specialist will be calling him back with his appointment information.
And I have a full night of work ahead of me. I'll be honest; I DO NOT feel like going whatsoever. I have no energy. But then again, it'll get my mind away from the chaos and noise of the house. I need time to process all this. It's been a really bad day. :-/