As thinking human beings at one time or another we are all faced with the reality that one day we will die. We are always aware that we will die, but there are moments when the thought occupies your mind. I felt that way last night. I try to live in the moment, but all it takes is a graduation or a birthday to leave you thinking "where did the time go?" I know many Atheists believe in some sort of an afterlife, but many do not. I believe our energy is transferred but that the consciousness no longer belongs to us. This is not as comforting as the belief of some paradise that I will get to live in for all eternity and wait for my loved ones in. :(
It's certainly not very comforting being an Atheist. I sat there last night thinking about how fast the past 35 years has gone by, and how much faster it seems to go by every year. Thinking about the great surprise party I had for my birthday one year, my god was that really 10 years ago?
I laid there thinking about how one day I'm just going to be gone. Maybe another 35 or 40 years from now, maybe next year who knows? I won't get to miss anyone, because I will just cease to exist. It's so sad nothing matters, but living right now and most of the time we live to plan for the future. When you are someone who believes in after life, there is always a future. For the rest of us....nothing. Wasting time being sad about it only takes up more precious time with the ones we love, but there are days when I just can't help it. There is no one to comfort the Atheist. There is nothing anyone can say to take that sadness away. I love my life, and one day it's just going to be over.