today is a big day ... could be bad EDIT!

[js321]

so mon-fri I'm in an outpatient partial hospital program for my mental health. I've been in and out of hospitals and programs since my attempted suicide in November.

today I have made the decision to set my daily treatment goal pretty high. I'm not sure how it's going to go but I guess I will find out. it could make or break me and I have a feeling it won't go well

I guess this was just a vent ... wish me luck

update... well today didn't go as well as I had hoped. it's left me worse off... I guess there always tomorrow.

[SunnySideUp6]

Good luck and keep us posted!

[AFWifeNMom]

Try to be optimistic! You ca do it! And remember, even though you may not know us irl we are still here for you!!!

[js321]

will do !

Quoting SunnySideUp6:

Good luck and keep us posted!

[js321]

thank you

Quoting AFWifeNMom:

Try to be optimistic! You ca do it! And remember, even though you may not know us irl we are still here for you!!!

[PinkyPan]

Good luck Justina. Think positive and go for it.

[js321]

ahh I'm gonna try. I'm crying thinking bout it. I could puke

Quoting PinkyPan:

Good luck Justina. Think positive and go for it.

[PinkyPan]

Hugs.

Quoting js321:

ahh I'm gonna try. I'm crying thinking bout it. I could puke

Quoting PinkyPan:

Good luck Justina. Think positive and go for it.

[js321]

edited.

[Jenner8]

Everyday is a new day... just keep looking forward.  You're obviously making an effort, that alone is a challenge, and you have my respect for trying.   Good luck and best wishes.

[js321]

thank you. means a lot. I thought it would be easier ... I have a little bag of let's say "things" that I always have. there's a bag in my room and in my car. I'm suppose to be starting to hand them over and part ways. but I like having them , being able to access them, they're a comfort thing. wasn't able to do it today. instead I had a breakdown.

Quoting Jenner8:

Everyday is a new day... just keep looking forward.  You're obviously making an effort, that alone is a challenge, and you have my respect for trying.   Good luck and best wishes.