So I'm sure I'll be bashed for this post but I don't care.. I have been married since 2001 we have 3 boys 12,10 and 5.. I was 15 when I got with my husband he was 19. I got pregnant shortly after starting to have sex. Well here I am 28 yrs old and soooo flippin lost in life. I've always lived in his bubble did what he wanted me to do at all times. This past 2 yrs I've changed in many ways. I'm truly seeing what I want in life and realizing who I am. The past 2 yrs I've came to find out that I do love my husband but I'm not in love with him and not sure if I ever have been. So I've been putting my fake smile on and pretending to be happy but it's getting harder and harder. Last year I met my sons baseball coach he's 24. Such a nice guy all about his kids. Well about 6 mths ago things got taken to another level between us.. So I've been with this guy the past 4 mths.. Our feelings are getting deeper and deeper for each other. I moved out of my house with my kids to my sisters house last week. I asked DH for a seperation he doesn't want it at all. So I got forced into talking to a therapist.. Doin have 4 sessions left and to try and find myself and come home. If I chose not to return home he cuts me off from everything.. Insurance both car and health, bank accounts and says he'll fight for our kids.. I know the right thing to do is not cheat and drop the other guy and we've both tried and we just go right back to each other. I'm so lost and confused.
on Jun. 29, 2012 at 5:46 PM