I'm just tired of never being good enough for the ONE person who has to approve of me, when everyone else thinks I'm just fine.
I'm tired of being rejected.
I'm just sick and damn tired of this.
I have to go by my 6mo's schedule for feedings and naps AND my work schedule, AND the guardian's schedule.
I wish he could just be HERE so we could all share ONE schedule.
I don't think I have any fight left. I've done what I was ordered to do, and asked for more with a "no" every time for whatever reason. First being I don't "focus" on him when he's here. Second being that she doesn't "trust" me to take care of him and be a good parent.
I am consistent, patient, respectful, pay my support, and much, much more... the only way I can SHOW you I'm a good parent is if you give me a chance.. which you're not willing to give me... so wtf do I do now?
You want me to go sit at my son's school and "get to know him"? I say "Sure!", and now, they tell you I'm not allowed to sit in there because I am not the custodial parent?
I mean... I'm trying here... but I can't do more than you'll allow me to do, which isn't shit anyway.
No amount of money, court dates, or anything will replace what you've taken away.
I have never been into drugs, I have never really done anything horrible (besides a few ignorant teen mistakes), my worst offense was moving too often... FOUR YEARS AGO. Can't we just move on?