2nd Edit: We have a basher!!EDIT**I didn't post on this site for almost a year...all because a few women hurt my feelings
First of all I know it was silly to let some strangers hurt my feelings but I was in a fragile state.
I had been posting updates on my mom's brief, losing battle with terminal pancreatic cancer. I made a post on the day of her funeral seeking support. Clearly I was not in a stable frame of mind and some bitches started giving me hell for being on cafemom on the day of my mother's funeral. I did it because so many of you had been so positive and supportive of me while she was sick. (she only lived 42 days after her diagnosis)
Anyway, it will be 1 year on the 28th of this month since those warm, sweet little hands I left my tears in went cold.
On my birthday, one week before she died, I stayed curled up with her in her bed, wrapped in her frail arms while she told me about the day I was born and how I was her baby...I stayed that way with her as she held me while I cried for hours.
I miss my mommy so much. I was there with her every minute of every day while she was sick.
I miss her overwhelming love for her family, I miss her awesome sense of humor. I miss her laughter and the sound of her voice. I miss her soft, sweet little hands. I miss her vast knowledge and intelligence on, what seemed like, every subject. I miss her eloquence and I miss her grace. I miss my best friend.
Thanks for listening.