I'm having a rough day and part of my rough day is due to all of the changes going on in our life lately. To keep this short here is what has happened in the past 4 months:
- Moved from a beautiful (albeit expensive) home of 1500 sq ft to a little home that is barely 800 sq ft.
- Went from working a great job with benefits (it was at a university and they didn't have the grant money to keep me) to working as a daycare teacher for a little more than minimum wage and picking up hours cleaning at dd's montessori school.
- Went from TTC to no longer TTC. =(
I'm just really frustrated with where we are in our life right now (fyi: my family is my SO, DD, and myself). I recently graduated college with 2 bachelor degrees and I didn't think the job market would be this hard. =( I'm dying to have more children and we were trying for 6 months until we stopped trying in July when we realized that financially it wasn't the best idea. Working at a daycare doesn't help my baby fever either. It is upsetting to me to see all of the pregnant mothers who drop their older toddlers off at the center. I simply cannot be happy for them. It just tugs at my heartstrings and I don't want to have to wait years to have more children.
I know I have a lot of good things going on in my life though. I'm not depressed or anything. I just wish we were better off financially. I'm back in college working on an online post-baccalaureate and if I get into grad school next year I will graduate in 2016 with good job outlook.
I just see successful, beautiful families all the time now it seems and I am feeling very insecure about my job, appearance, and finances. To top it all off our car broke down last weekend too. Bleh.
Can someone just tell me things will get better? Anyone else feeling like this lately?
LOL. Thanks =P