I Feel Like Such a Loser

[black.eyeliner]

I have to vent. I feel like such a loser. My mother-in-law is in liver failure and I feel like I am failing her.

Six months ago I agreed to be a living donor and give her half my liver. But I was 290 lbs and that is called morbidly obese and you can't give at that weight. So I have been losing weight steadily. I am at 210 as of this morning.

But she is so pale right now and she is skin and bones. I can see even vein and bone and it is just so wrong. I hate it. I hate that I was so fat that I am a risk to my mama. She is so important to me. I have to get to 155 lbs before they will even consider transplanting.

Why the hell did I do this to my family? I swear to everything that is holy I sat on the sofa and ate Hostess for years on end. I was a pig. Now it is biting me on the a*# in the worse way. I just want this to be over. I want them to find an organ and not to be the only thing standing in her way of a decent life. I feel like such a loser.

[Grumpylilpixy]

Do what you got to do. It was a suggestion. Lol. Good grief.

Quoting black.eyeliner:

Oh and my doctor is worried about putting anything through my liver. I can not put any stress on the organ. I actually had to change my vitamins to a different brand under the transplant teams advice. They said avoid diet pills, drink tons of water and nothing else, and try to go vegetarian six days a week.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Really. I lost 90 lbs in 3 months. But you were saying? And my blood was taking after wards and was healthy. I'm still healthy 15 years later. So you were saying?lmao

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

Taking amphetamines isn't going to speed up your weight loss any quicker than your already successful diet and exercise plan.  Also,  using them could inhibit your ability to donate your organs later on.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Talk to your Dr about Phentermine. Good luck mama.

 

[sherry132]

What a wonderful gift you've already given her. Losing weight is hard. You are doing it and you are working hard. My prayers go to you, that you lose the weight and both of you are healthy from now on. Good luck and don't be so upset with yourself. :)

[Mrs.Winchester]

So you lost on average 8lbs a week for a 3 month period and you want to preach to me about health?  LMAO  Oooook.  I'm glad your blood work came back with good results but your view and mine on health are a little different. The main reason this is not a good option for the OP is because these drugs process through your liver,  which OP has already stated could disqualify her from her goal of donating.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Really. I lost 90 lbs in 3 months. But you were saying? And my blood was taking after wards and was healthy. I'm still healthy 15 years later. So you were saying?lmao

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

Taking amphetamines isn't going to speed up your weight loss any quicker than your already successful diet and exercise plan.  Also,  using them could inhibit your ability to donate your organs later on.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Talk to your Dr about Phentermine. Good luck mama.

[black.eyeliner]

Please don't do that to me. I have been crying all day. I was not upset with you. I have to be horribly careful with everything I put in my body. I can't even have Sweet & Low or Coke. Most meds are off limits. It is better that I puke than take Pepto. I am not just trying to lose weight. I have to not have any damage to the organ that it needs time to heal from. I did not attack you .... I had to state this because it is extremely important.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Do what you got to do. It was a suggestion. Lol. Good grief.

Quoting black.eyeliner:

Oh and my doctor is worried about putting anything through my liver. I can not put any stress on the organ. I actually had to change my vitamins to a different brand under the transplant teams advice. They said avoid diet pills, drink tons of water and nothing else, and try to go vegetarian six days a week.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Really. I lost 90 lbs in 3 months. But you were saying? And my blood was taking after wards and was healthy. I'm still healthy 15 years later. So you were saying?lmao

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

Taking amphetamines isn't going to speed up your weight loss any quicker than your already successful diet and exercise plan.  Also,  using them could inhibit your ability to donate your organs later on.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Talk to your Dr about Phentermine. Good luck mama.

 

 

[Grumpylilpixy]

I never said they are a good solution to the obesity issue. And you have to do a life change with them. My weight lose is not typical. I got off the couch and used them as a supplement. She basically is saying. My mom is withering away and the weight loss isn't fast enough. Again a suggestion. I wouldn't have suggested it if someone was practically dying and their life depended on the surgery and her weight loss. The woman may not last that long that it takes her to lose. Just saying she could use them or the majority and do the last 20 pounds naturally. It wouldn't hurt anything. Again Just a suggestion and a life hangs in the balance.

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

So you lost on average 8lbs a week for a 3 month period and you want to preach to me about health?  LMAO  Oooook.  I'm glad your blood work came back with good results but your view and mine on health are a little different. The main reason this is not a good option for the OP is because these drugs process through your liver,  which OP has already stated could disqualify her from her goal of donating.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Really. I lost 90 lbs in 3 months. But you were saying? And my blood was taking after wards and was healthy. I'm still healthy 15 years later. So you were saying?lmao

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

Taking amphetamines isn't going to speed up your weight loss any quicker than your already successful diet and exercise plan.  Also,  using them could inhibit your ability to donate your organs later on.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Talk to your Dr about Phentermine. Good luck mama.

[Grumpylilpixy]

I didn't do anything but make a suggestion. There was no attack in this conversation.

Quoting black.eyeliner:

Please don't do that to me. I have been crying all day. I was not upset with you. I have to be horribly careful with everything I put in my body. I can't even have Sweet & Low or Coke. Most meds are off limits. It is better that I puke than take Pepto. I am not just trying to lose weight. I have to not have any damage to the organ that it needs time to heal from. I did not attack you .... I had to state this because it is extremely important.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Do what you got to do. It was a suggestion. Lol. Good grief.

Quoting black.eyeliner:

Oh and my doctor is worried about putting anything through my liver. I can not put any stress on the organ. I actually had to change my vitamins to a different brand under the transplant teams advice. They said avoid diet pills, drink tons of water and nothing else, and try to go vegetarian six days a week.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Really. I lost 90 lbs in 3 months. But you were saying? And my blood was taking after wards and was healthy. I'm still healthy 15 years later. So you were saying?lmao

Quoting Mrs.Winchester:

Taking amphetamines isn't going to speed up your weight loss any quicker than your already successful diet and exercise plan.  Also,  using them could inhibit your ability to donate your organs later on.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Talk to your Dr about Phentermine. Good luck mama.