my sister "R" is my only option for childcare right now. *freaking out a bit right now*
i only need to work a few more weeks until i can go on sick leave and then mat leave. a few more weeks. and both of the only babysitters i had have moved out of town in the last few weeks.
well, my 21yr old sitter went to Vancouver for a theatrical thing which she isn't sure how long it will last, and the other was like a cool british 50something gramma. and they went to alberta for the remainder of the winter.
i had a weeks notice about them leaving, and have been trying like mad to find a new sitter before i work on tues, but have had no luck.
and dh is gone to stoon again, for another week of school, so it will be just me, her and the kids. i have no one else who can come at the drop of a hat.
i am so scared. i am freaking out. she babysat my sister "J"'s kids, but not everyday for what could turn into a few weeks.
having severe anxiety/panic attacks. he's just little. what if she doesn't take care of him? or loses her temper? or falls asleep? or forgets about him? or burns the house down.
i need a paper bag. **hyperventilating**