Just venting and wanting some opinions....... (long)
Ok, so dd's father and I split up finally after 5 long years of pure unhappiness. All we did was argue pretty much every day to every other day. There was no affection, no love shown, barely even talking as well. My plan for myself was to be single and stay single for 1-3 years at least. To at least just try and see where that road would take me. That plan didn't work out because I ended up meeting someone.
Upon meeting Neel, all I really wanted out of it was friendship. Obviously it went further and we ended up together. I am completely IN LOVE with him. He always keeps a smile on my face no matter what the situation may be. I honestly have never felt so much happiness and love in my life before in a relationship. Before Neel, I never wanted to get married. And now all I want is to be married to him.
But, here's where the problems come in...... My parents basically flat out told me that if I end up with him that they will disown me. They told me they don't approve and this is without even meeting him or trying to get to know him first. They don't approve because of his race. He is East Indian. I honestly don't see a problem with it. It's not even about race for me. My heart is torn. I honestly feel ashamed of my parents because of the fact of when I was growing up, I was told to always respect people no matter their race, color of their skin, height, weight, etc. And now they're going against all of that and judging him just because of his race. I feel so bad.
Right now I feel stuck. After me and my ex broke up I ended up having to move in with my parents. Now I'm trying to get back on my feet but I feel like I'm always going to be stuck at their house. I feel this way because alll my mother does is complain and rant about money. Always, all of our arguments are about money. Because she helped me pay off some credit card debt about a little over a year ago, she's been hounding me about the money I owe her for it. Which honestly doesn't bother me because I don't mind helping her back for helping me but they expect at least $1,000 every tax period it seems. I just handed over $2,000 to my mother yesterday and instead of getting a simple "thank you", I was told she wants another $1,000! I could have used that $2,000 to run and never look back, but no I wanted to help them back for helping me!
So now the battle with my parents is because of money and my Fiance's race. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to hold on. I'm trying to be strong but I honestly don't know how much more I can take.
Can anyone give me any opinions or advice? Please!!