Well, it's been over a year since we had a miscarriage.. I can't really explain how it has changed my life but it has.. I feel lost now.. Incomplete.. Everyone says " Your only 21 Jamie, you will have a baby when the time is right. You have plenty of years" Well.. If that is so then why do I feel like I need it now and without it I have nothing to live for? Why do I feel the NEED to have a baby NOW? Like one is just going to pop right out of me!... I miscarried at around 4 months, only 2 days after hearing the heartbeat for the first time.. I no longer know what to do, I see the baby in my dreams.. I cry everyday for my baby.. I hate myself for the loss of my baby.. Is that wrong? Please, can't someone help me.. Does anyone understand??