A little back story. We live of a 50 acre ranch and also have three kids that i home school. I take care of all the animals here, chickens, goats, pigs, horses, bunnies, and a couple more, on top of all the gardening, making sure the house is clean, laundry is done, 3 square meals a day for the kids, plus their schooling, and i am trying to get into shape because i want to look good, so now two workout routines a day.
A couple times when hubby has come home and he has noticed my mom has done something he will thank her and tell her she did a great job. NEVER has thanked me and told me i have done a nice job. I get that he works and i stay home so this is what is expected of me but it still would be nice to have some appreciation. I was fine with the first couple times he did it but this last time i said something and he just shrugged it off.
Yesterday we where all out on the porch talking, enjoying the sunset over our lake. I had to go in for a drink. When i came back i was told that i can't do laundry anymore, i lost that right because i can't keep up with it. I laughed it off thinking it was a very sad attempt at a joke but fastly learned it wasn't. I asked him if i wasn't good enough to do laundry over the thousand of other things i have to do here and he said that obviously i can't handle it being i have so much to do but my mom can. I felt like he stabbed me. I don't no why it hurt so much but it did. I am NEVER good enough. There is always SOMETHING i forget to do and get yelled at for it. It seems i can never get anything right. The house can be spotless laundry done dinner on the table but i forgot to do something outside. Instead of praising me for the clean out and dinner its all forgotten about because now the thing i forgot to do outside make it all not ok.
I would have to be up at 6 in the morning not even get dressed not even do anything with the kids and go none stop to get everything done that is expected of me and not expect any praise and if its not all done risk getting yelled at and having a VERY grumpy husband when he gets home.
Am i wrong for being upset?