Am I wrong for not giving a F**** that hes dying?
OK let me start with the backstory. My kids dad was the only man ive ever really been with. i got with him when I was 19. I have two boys by him. We lived together in total HELL for five years til i got sick of his abuse and bullshit and sick of living a lie. I left him in OCT of 2010 and moved from MN to TX. Our oldest was 3 at the time and the youngest had JUST turned one. He ended up moving down to arkansas trying to find us cuz his sister lives there. Well, In the past almost 3 years he has sent a total of $336 dollars to the boys. Works under the table and gets SSI. My sons visited him once two summers ago and hav enever been back since I found out there was drugs and other things going on in front of my kids. He hasnt even spoken to them in 7 months. He has even told me Ishould loose my kids, he has called CPS with false accusations and he told me he wished I died and has denied his kids knowing DAMN well they are his.
Well today I get a call from a random number on the way to work. I dk why i answered it cuz i usually dont but it was his sister. She told me he was dying of scerosis of the liver and didnt have long left. They were at the hospital now. My exact words were " So?What do you want me to do about it? Why are you telling me like Im supposed to care" I really dont. Now it did hurt that she called me a heartless bitch cuz i am far from that. i will give the shirt of my back but everybody has a breaking point.I do feel bad Im trying to find some compassion cuz im usually a very big hearted caring person, but I really cant find any empathy for him. My oldest hardly asks about him and my youngest has NO clue who he is at all. Now I will probably tell my oldest if and when he dies but Im not saying anything now.. at least not until I know more and until school is out.
Has anyone been in this situation? Am I really wrong for not caring?I care about how my kid will feel but thats as far as my caring goes...